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God, if these are the tests and challenges You have given me, i thank You for these. Even though it is hard, but i will step out of my comfort zone. If these are what you want and what You have planned for me, i will do it for You. Thank You for planning such a great destiny ahead of me. No longer will i run away from my obstacles but i will face it, together with You. I am happyyyy and exciteddddd! =)

Service was great today! Power-packed and teary service. Felt the strong tangible presence of God and i really love His presence. God spoke to me that i’m not walking alone, many times i think like that cos i totally forgot He is with me no matter where i’m walking towards.

Gotta start to be a doer of God’s word! 

Hey! Shall post something before i go and study!

Today was greattt! Had Hougang Sec PM after school. God spoke to me about a person to bring! Was very expected person, but i’m excited. Believe God will engineer ways to allow me to EV that person! Hahaha. Got high singing “Happy Day” as usual. Xinyi said it’s my song. Hmmmm. Hahaha.

On the bus home, was just talking to Cheryl about end-times. We had all sorts of imagination and the fear of the Lord. Gonna live my life with a purpose! I can and i shall live my life right. This is the finest hour! Hmmm maybe change a right phone too…My current housebrand phone seems spoilt, cannot receive some calls and msgs. What a weird phone!

Anw had been reading the Bait of Satan by John Bevere these few days. It’s an awesome awesome book! Can’t wait to get more books by John Bevere. And a new Bible! And to give my tithe! There’s just so many things i wanna do. =)

Life is just purely awwwwwwwesomee!

Went to school early in the morning to complete my ‘O’s art painting. Mr Tan told me to emphasize on the “hair” and if i did a good job on it, he would be very pleased. So i chionged the hair and got myself a permission to leave halfway!

Cabbed to church. Malay cab driver kept asking about church when i replied him why i was going to Singpost. Talked about it a little and he said he would come when he has the chance to!

Excited for service. Received lots from what Dom has preached about servanthood. Revelation: Obedience is just serving for the sake of just serving but servanthood is obedience + willingness. Many times we just want to be obedient, hoping others will notice us serving. It will eventually become a routine and we would get tired of it. However, if we begin to have a willingness out of the heart, it will be more than just the superficial but that is what keeps us serving and continuing what we are doing for God without any tiredness!

Truly, willingness gives us purpose to keep going on.

It’s not just about starting to be faithful, but being faithful all the wayyyyyyy! =) [not just being starters, but also finishers.]

Pst How preached a sermon that impacted me deep deep deep down in my heart. (Also, it is expressed out! Not just deep deep deeeeeeeep down)

Have been so guilty for resting this few days. Sometimes just wanna know what is the real definition of “rest”. I finally found my answer today! Rest in God, it’s only in His presence that we are able to find true rest and peace in our souls. Let’s not just be Martha (Marthyr) but balance between her and the heart of Mary (worshipper).

Love love love God’s Word. Plans next week: Save up, give tithe, get a new Bible! God is important to me, He is my One and Only.

Ooooooooops…! Before i know it, it has already been a week since i posted. Haha so you guys roughly know the time i have to switch on my computer now, what’s more surf the net.

Yesterday’s service was really awe-inspiring. God does not work within time limitations, He is the past, the future and the present. However, His presence is all around us. Why? There is no beginning and end for Him, He is eternity. However, He made the decision to step out of His eternal life to work with us within the limitations of time - 2000 years ago - to die for us on the cross, to redeem our lives through the blood of Jesus Christ! How awesome it is for a God to step out of His comfort and perfect zone to a zone of sinners and even suffer for us mere small beings. Just because He loves us so much and willing to give us the gift of eternity.

Today - bible study! Wow, i really thank Pastor How for preaching this to us. Sometimes, we just always keep serving and doing people work, forgetting the ultimate purpose behind them.

• Why did we do what we are doing now?
• What is the reasons behind all of these we are doing now?
• For ourselves?

No.

With Pastor’s amazing preaching and the Worship team pulling down the presence of God, i realised and found a treasure deep inside my heart that i neglected sometimes. Jesus Christ.

He was my first love. When we were singing ‘God of my forever’ during service today, God was refreshing my memories and playing flashbacks of my life in my mind.

The day when i first attended CHC. It was somehow coincidental to me, but definitely one of God’s mighty plans for me. On that service, i cried as the joy of God filled me and accepted Jesus Christ into my heart.

The day when He asked me to stand strong on my convictions to go to church every week even though i had to step out of my comfort zone.

The day when i attended HoGC service for the very first time and cried again when singing the worship songs.

The day when i took the initiative to attend HoGC service for the second time even though none of my close friends were with me.

So many other incidents…How did those happen, i could not tell. I strongly believe that they were just some extremely small plans from God but they work so greatly in my life.

It was hard struggling through my christian walk and for the first few mths in HoGC as i had to keep fighting the war with the temptations of the devil, but i’m glad i had not gave in. For God is the true and the only vine, and i love Him so much i couldn’t bear to leave Him. God, i surrender my life to You. What could i do without You Lord?

I must admit that things somehow always work this way, that parts of our christian walk with God may get tiring for us sometimes, and we may feel like giving up. Our love may also deteoriate the more we serve Him and the longer we have been in our walk with God.

Today’s bible study hit my heart so hard. During worship, God’s presence was so strong and He was embracing me so much that i felt so loved….I cried uncontrollably during the whole time of worship. When was the last time i felt such a strong presence of God, i could not tell. The only thing i could tell was that it has been so long, - just so long since i told Him with all my heart that i really love Him.

I pray that i would not lose this precious feeling ever again and that my heart would not grow weary when i serve Him. The more i serve, the closer the relationship i should have with God.

I miss you Lord. Though the journey was long and sometimes weary, thank You for still loving and caring for me. You can give me anything Lord - they are fine - but Your presence is a treasure to me.

Now i can tell you with 100% assurance and 100% of my heart that I love You.
Talk is cheap, but see it from my heart Lord.

Wow these few days although things don’t always go well, (well, things don’t go well sometimes) but i’m glad to have a God whom i just know is always there. Shall tell you guys my story today since i haven’t been posting for so long + to improve my writing skills!

10 year series? Or not? =))
You’ll see.

I woke up in the morning at 4 plus. It was an enthu morning. The weather was good and the surroundings were still and silent. Though my flesh was reluctant to move, but my spirit eventually overcomed my flesh.

So i prepared and all, and stepped out of my beautiful house. I was walking super slowly to the taxi lane, wanting to feel the beautiful calmness of the surroundings and the slight breeze that flew into my face, my hair flying behind me.

There was a lot of cabs available at that time. Within a few seconds, i hailed one. The air-conditioner made me feel so comfortable that i felt like sleeping again. Fortunately, the cab reached Paya Lebar Singpost soon after.

I walked into Heart of God Church, knowing that i’m in for a good time.

People were smiling. Unfamiliar faces clotted my view and i immediately knew that a lot of them were from CHC. Joy and faith filled my heart as i ushered them into the lifts. A smile really changes something.

-OK…I don’t really have the patience to write a story anymore. Let’s just write this casually!-

Time passes in the *blink* of the eye that the HS group realised that we had to go to school! We were somehow taking our own sweet time and it was already about 9am when we got onto a cab.

We kept unconsciously irritating the cab driver and by the time we got down from the cab, the cab driver seemed quite pissed already. Hahahahaa!! So we sipped down our breakfast milos from Singpost, and walked with fast paces to the hall for morning assembly. I chionged my newspaper cutting (which the cab driver was enthusiastic to give me earlier on) when the VP was reading a letter about Scouts Day and Girls Brigade Day, and went back to class for lessons.

Lessons were - well, as boring as usual (i really don’t want to lie), and as usual my lethargicity was getting stronger and stronger every sentence the teacher says. I held it in as i remembered what Fedora told us yesterday. That we study - yes, to glorify God - but at the same time, we study because we want to ”activate” our brains, so that we could be able to understand the sermons, which is important in a way to provide opportunities for ourselves to let God speak into our lives.

I totally agree with what Fedora said. Though occasionally my head was still nodding towards the table (well, you know what i mean), but in the end my heart overcomed my so unclear mind.

Yes, well - anyway, i was talking about….Oh. Lessons were boring but i endured. Halfway throughout my lessons, a strong and gradually arising pain attacked me, causing me to want to sleep even more. With gritted teeth and clenched fists, i held it in with all my might until i reached home.

Bathe and slept for a total of 5 hours. Did my QT and was fully refreshed.

Sorry i’m quite lazy to continue with my post anymore, so i think i shall end here!

Anyway, Kampong Glam for my Art ‘O’s, anyone?

Hi everybody! Been such a long time since i last posted.

I finally found full security in the Lord. I felt that God has been constantly guiding me when i lost my direction; comforted me when i’m down. I really enjoyed talking to Him about all my problems. He is the only One i can pour my heart out to. Basically these few days the presence of God is so strong everytime i prayed.

Now i can tell you - i’m truly happy. Even though the problems are there, God is also there. And that is what comforts me.

Spent 2 hrs at OPSS with Huiling and Jolene. Were so proud of them. Huiling was excited for follow-up and Jolene explained christianity and prayed for Huiling with her own initiative. Truly leaderless action. I think in this aspect i still have to grow a lot more.

Many problems. Problems are so cute, like Pastor How said, they come in a pair - or even in a group.

Really grew a lot these few days. I think some things i just have to put more faithfulness in them. It’s my responsibility and i have to be accountable for them. Season of growing!! =))

Oops…I think in studying i haven’t been growing a bit. But i’m happy for the results i have gotten for my english and literature tests. Thank God i do not have to drop literature. I think i shall go and do my homework now. Lots of tests going on this week! O level Art is a GROWING problem for me too.

I finally have the time to study! Study to glorify God. I’m gonna do well for my ‘O’ levels this year and be a testimony for others.   

Ewo my gosh. I don’t know what i did to my tumblr and now it’s gone! So here’s another one.

Hey! I’m so sorry i haven’t been updating and trying to revive my soon-to-be-dead blog.

Today is my dad’s birthday. Made him angry yesterday and we were upset with each other. But hey dad, no matter what, you will still be my dad. The dad that nuture me and cares for me, and i will be the daughter taking care of you until you are old. Just wanna say a big “Happy Birthday” to my dad who is sleeping right now. =)

Outing with Samantha and Jolene was great today. Haha Jolene was so cute. She woke up at 10 plus and smsed me, and slept back! This is a record for me mianz. It’s the first time i’ve been waiting for a person for close to 2 hrs.

But it’s alright! =) I’m still a happy girl. Hahaha

Went to Causeway Point and coincidentally found out that it’s also Samantha’s father today! Thus, the three of us went to shop for presents for mine and Sam’s fathers. It was fun shopping for men’s presents!

We were soon holding men products in Metro, and comparing. The typical subject of our conversation will be “Hmm..Will my dad like this? Or is that better?” Quickly, we came to know what each of our fathers like.

We left after about 2 hrs! =) And now i’m home. Some unpleasant things happened at home just these two days and now it’s all over. I thank God for the tests and challenges He has given me. Now i’m ready to grow much stronger spiritually.